A while ago I was ill and off deviantart for a while. Mainly because staring at a really small computer screen and typing on tiny little keys didn't appeal. When I say I had over 100 llamas to return, I admit I looked at them, and thought "...no". I did make a start, and an hour later had returned 30. But, I confess, I ended up clicking the lovely cross icon, and ignoring them.
Now I feel guilty So I've gone round every llama page and given llamas to people for two hours. Hopefully I've given a few to the people who made the effort to give me one, and had none in return.

It's odd how my journal looks fine in IE, but it's all peculiar in Chrome... I don't really care, tbh, it's alright. I like the teapot. I like the simplistic style. I'd like to make the footer (on the right) a scrolling div and put stamps / features in there, but I'm a) too lazy and b) can't find a way of making a scrolling div on here because deviantART seems to have blocked the codes I usually use. So if anyone happens to be reading this and has an idea as to what I could do, or could even point me to someone with a tutorial that'd be grand. i've searched google and looked through some premade journal layouts to see if I could ask permission to borrow some of the code to help me out, but to no avail. Nightmare.

Considering showing Jessi my deviantART page. She's shown an interest in my stuff, so I might do... But I'm not certain about some of the poetry being shown to people who are, essentially, my guardians. It's like showing your Mum and Dad, which is... A bit hard, unless the poem you show them is about puppies, and not the heavier things that mine are on. I guess I'm just a bit tentative because it may concern them' but I tend to only write poetry in a state of high emotion, when I'm really down and have an emotion bursting out of my chest. By writing, I'm allowing the emotion to consume me fully, as opposed to bottling, and putting my frustration to good use. So I suppose it is a bit of an outlet. But, as well as that, I like to submit work to groups which help people with similar issues, people who read them, identify, and find calm from them. I've had a fair few messages after my poem "my addiction", from people asking how I'm doing, sharing their experiences, their tips and tricks. It's been so helpful, and I'm thankful for every pm that I get. And will get, since it seems that every fortnight it is submitted to another group and another wave of people cast their eyes upon it.
I'm getting better though, much better. Every so often I pull a bit more, and have to force myself to stop but... I don't know. I don't pull if my hair feels soft, because it's... well, soft. If it's a day or two after my last shower+ hair wash, and the hairspray is feeling odd, then I do, because I tend to pull out the hairspray and therefore end up finding hair which, in my mind, needs to be pulled. It feel great, but I guess I need to remember that it's not great. Not at all. But, my bald patch is almost entirely gone now, which is fantastic. I've a bit of a mullet now, but I'm almost proud of it ! To everyone but me, it's stupid and looks hilarious, but to me... it's an achievement. It shows that "this is how long it's been since I pulled". I love it

This wasn't meant to be a trichotillomania post, it just... became one.

It's raining. I like rain.